Happiness crushed instantaneously
Hope shattered like glass on concrete
Smiles dissipate into a familiar frown
As hot tears burn the sides of my face

Is this what I deserve?
Sadness?
Hopelessness?
Complete and utter loneliness?

I don’t believe in sins
But maybe I’m a sinner
Maybe I deserve the **** the universe hands me
Maybe it’s a punishment for my flaws and actions

I want to feel anger
I want to scream and punch the wall until red blood covers my hand and drips onto my floor
I want to fight the world and everyone in it

But I don’t
I can’t
Instead I cry
I sob
And wipe my face
Desperately trying to cover weakness
I shouldn’t cry
I know I shouldn’t cry
But I can’t help it