I hadn't slept or ate in days
It was 3:26 am when I cried on the cold bathroom floor
I couldn't ******* breathe
I cried so hard that I was suffocating
my throat burned and everything was dark and blurry
I cried all night and held my pillow, pretending that it was you
In the morning I shakily typed out a long message to send to you
I was in so much pain and I just needed someone to be there for me
But I never sent the message
Because I knew you wouldn't be there for me even you promised you always would