you may permit me in we make exotic dishes of laughter and shared values over talk of philosophic rapport childish banter and gestures of tender philanthropy on each finger tip on every pressed lip but you wont give me a key though it's where I live this is my home, you've made it so, just for me you showed me in you courteously carried my persona into your door you do me the greatest of services those that would make any soul well-lived if I removed any trace of my exsistance you would despair as you have but you refuse to give me a key and without it, it makes it as though you dont really, actually, want me and what most anguishes my mind is that I always gingerly close the door from the outside if it werent for my soft touch, and attentive eyes I'd have reason to believe that something is wrong with me or my love when, seemingly, it was made to our advantage I do the best to support your virtues and those that disturb the peace This is where my belongings know their place This is my home where I linger after I wake where I loose myself in the silence where I drink myself into a stuppor because my lover wont give me a key You leave me broken up but you gather my peaces by light of kindness You don't understand, I'm hitting a wall I'm hitting your good heart your good, muddled, heart I'm hitting a wall a hard hard evaluation of a disturbing heart-to-heart of which I never learned of