the neighbourhood is playing in the background and you’re downing a bottle of liquor while i sit on the cold wooden floor with my knees to my chest
you were on your third bottle and i kept watching them pile up you loved to ruin your body because you said it made you feel as if you had control. you wanted control.
i think that’s why you always held my hand. not because you loved me and wanted to but because you felt as if you had to in order to keep me in line
i watched you put another pill on your tongue as your head went back. i can’t stand the sight of you sometimes and it makes me want to down that same bottle of liquor to ease my bitterness towards you
but if i did that you’d call me a ******* alcoholic again.