A lot of things changed since you've gone..
The crowd is messier, clouds darker and goals are farther.
I had you in bests and in worsts..
Now it's just me, with tough decisions to make and directions to choose.
Your words echo in my ears, more intense every time. The giggles, the sobs.. It's just in my head now.
And then there are dreams, all meaningless and perplexing..
I see you in a different way then. Almost there, about to get pristine.. And boom! You're out of sight again.
I had you to fight for me all these years. I had you to comfort me and hit me and make me and break me..
And only once you might have needed me and I was away, miles away enjoying the life you gave me.. Why didn't you scream loud enough? I could come.. To pay back all what you gave...
How do I talk to you again? How do I get to flaunt my victories? How will I confess my sins? You said you'll be there.. Be there during the happy ending.
I guess it's the way life works.. You don't get to say goodbye. And honestly, I don't ever want to bade you Farewell.. I want you to haunt me and talk to me, so that I can keeping walking on the darkest roads and through the quietest lanes..
A lot of things changed since you've gone.
A lot..