even on the days I don't feel lonely–I still want to ask you how you're doing (or how you've been).
And I'm getting better at not looking up people that I miss
to see photos I've already seen.
And I've been doing good to avoid reading past texts
to remember how it felt talking to you.

But right now, I hate that
memories of our past conversations are
ECHOES in my head and I hate that
if we're in the same room I feel like I'm not allowed to look in your direction
because in the off chance you catch my glance
I'm scared you'll get the wrong idea and think that I'm still thinking of you when I'm not (or at least not trying to).