I finally did it today Even though every bone of my body was screaming at me Don't do it! Don't do it! I did it anyway It was just as bad as I imagined it would be All the bad **** I thought would happen happened I got all sweaty I nearly ****** my pants I couldn't speak I choaked on my own spit I fell apart It was horrible But it was incredibly easy So easy to fall to pieces So easy to cease to exist So easy to break I enjoyed it Too much maybe I'll probably do it all again tomorrow I've been so lonely It's all I can think about doing when I am alone When it gets quiet Nobody is watching me but myself I fall apart Loving it Feeling a little less lonely for a bit Almost ******* my pants Sweating Looking aroung and seeing nobody Nobody but me Talking to myself Telling myself Don't do it Don't do it