(hi,) hi. (how was your weekend?) i spent in on nothing. i spent it trying to cover up a sensation. (i went for a run), or (i went to the gym.) it felt like static inside my head. it felt like static through my legs. what kind of free time is spent feeling like static, like pins poking and needles pulling? (then i made dinner for the family.) i spent time in a toxic hole that people have helped me out of many times before. i just keep diving back in. you should learn by now, you should learn. you’re doing everything you can to learn. it’s just not sinking in. it’s okay. sometimes there are just topics we’ll never be able to understand. (walked the dog, went to the store.) sat in space for hours and watched the sun rise, watched the sun set, wondered how it became two useless days later already. guess it’s time for bed. (so what did you do?) oh, nothing much, pretty quiet.