help. help me. ad infinitum, a life that never ends. this life never ceases to exist and because of this I kneel to my master with alacrity and grace, for this brisk readiness to end my life is tangible to touch. and in my catharsis, I still fight, too hard and long to see out help. help me. in this field of broken flowers smashed stems and divided blades, I cannot be infinite anymore. so I write this to let you know my end is near. it does not bother me so, this ephemeral life, for a thousand years could not reflect this pain. help. just help me.