Maybe this isn’t supposed to be this hard,
I know no one ever said it was going to be easy but love isn’t supposed to be difficult.
I shouldn’t have to fight my heart over reason,
I shouldn’t have to defend my decisions in my own head.
Loving you shouldn’t hurt,
it was supposed to be seamless,
loving you was supposed to feel like coming home.
But now I find myself circling the block,
finding reasons to go out, because you are not home anymore,
just some stranger that I do not recognize,
you are foreign to me now.
We were supposed to be best friends,
my one true confidant
but over time we began to pull back,
there we some secrets we couldn’t share,
some feelings that were better kept hidden and soon after,
conversations began to fade into meaningless observations about work and weather.
im tired of feeling lonely when were together
I’m tired of feeling defeated.
This wasn’t supposed to be this hard but it is.