I tried to cut myself today I backed out at the last minute I instead took a rubber and I left marks up and down my legs I didn’t cry from the pain I cried because of the nothing I felt I cried because I didn’t feel anything I kept the welts in line and I maintained the perfect sloppiness I proceeded to make wishes I made a wish with each snap I wished for necessities I wished for oblivion and I wished for a place where Nothing was a feeling and I Felt Nothing