I don’t know how to feel
I don’t know how to deal
I wanna cry and scream
I’m gonna smile and show esteem

I feel like I’m in a game
So how do I tame?
Do I show how I feel in risk of neglect?
Do I hide it and hope it doesn’t reflect?
I don’t know what to do
I don’t know how to think
When all I can do is try not to blink

Because if I blink
And tears run down my face
I risk being neglected
When a smile should have reflected
A smile full of lies
A smile full of pain
If they only see the smile
No one can gain

Gain seeing me weak
Because I couldn’t hit a happy peak
I don’t want them to gain
But it’s putting me in so much pain