The closest I have been to happiness was that one evening watching The Shining with you; when there was a snowstorm outside and our parents were having dinner together and you promised to cook for me (your cooking was awful, by the way) and we talked and turned off all the lights, turned on the television and made fun of the wallpaper in the hotel. We watched Mathilda after that, which, to be honest, was much more frightening, and I think you put your arm around me; I pretended not to notice, because I thought it might not mean anything; your mother came home too soon and we said goodbye. I promised to cook for you, some day, and never did, then you moved to the other side of the country and fell in love with someone else and I stayed here, and I dated other people and never really got you out of my head.
Now I am over you, and have been for a while, but even though we never were together all of my best memories include you; and it leaves me empty-hearted and wondering if I'll ever learn to love eating terrible salmon and watching a terrible film with someone else.