i didn't want to die last night
for the first time in fifteen years
we watched Six Feet Under
and I tried not to look at you
because if i did you would've seen me
in all my emotional sap
i'm a ******* bleeding heart
i would've cried in your lap
but you wouldn't even mind
and that's the problem
you would've seen the gunk inside
and have hugged it anyway
i'm so ******* afraid
everything is going to end
and right now i don't want to die