I'm tired
So exhausted
I am broken
I was breaking
But now
I am broken

I
Can't do this anymore

I used to be okay
Then I met you
And for a while my life was euphoric
Fantastic
Beautiful
Full of so much happiness

Then
I don't know what changed

You said everything was still okay
Good
Great
But it doesn't feel the same
You get frustrated at me
And i can't fix it

Can't say sorry
Nothing feels good enough

It is all broken
And I'm tired of trying
So tired of trying
I'm just done
Right now
I want to run
So far

I want to drive away
Leave without saying goodbyes
Just keep driving til I run out of gas
Or fall off the edge of the world
I don't really care which

I am done
So done
I can't live like this
On the paranoid edge of never knowing what will make you upset
Walking on eggshells

Meanwhile
To rub salt into the wound

It feels like you just run me over
However you want to
You've taken so much from me
Had so many of my firsts
I've let you in so far

And only now do I realize I've let a mad bull into my china closet
And I am paralyzed on the floor while you smash and crack
Terrified of what I've done

What have I done?
Is it too late?
Can I back out?
Is this my life now?