transgender
sometimes I want to end it all
the ones who I love don't  accept me
they love me for the fake me
they love it when I wear dresses
they love it when I use my dead name
my ******* feminine name
the name that brings so much pain
they love it when I use she pronouns
when I smile and pretend that I am not uncomfortable in my body
when I say I'm okay but the truth is I'm not
I would rather die than have to live as a girl for the rest of my life
but they don't care they would rather have a dead daughter than an alive son