Purpose and Meaning

I live my life with purpose and meaning yet it’s never enough.  

It’s never enough for me for anyone for all.

What was once my purpose my path my destiny my map has dissolved.  

Yet I’m still here wondering why

Feeling like a new born babe starting over.  A new purpose a path?  Too late my time is almost done in this life.  

It will always be too late.  It will never seem right.  U will always wonder why.   Wonder what my path was supposed to be.  Wonder how could I have not seen?  

I can’t see.  I can’t hear.  I can’t speak.  My heart skips too many beats.  It hurts.  It was just repaired yet has been torn apart again so much faster and shredded beyond any meaning of anything at all...especially a purpose.  

I have no purpose no meaning nothing at all.  A beautiful child to find her purpose in this life if at all.  

Perhaps she was my only purpose.  To create a rainbow energy so lite and so tall.  Able to handle the anger, manipulation, jealously to easily conquer them all.  Much better than her mom who has fallen worst of Them all.