It is poison
Flowing
Through my veins
My mind troubled
And waves of loss
Are all I gain
Perhaps
I am dependent
On the pain
Years of being
Borderline obsessed
Imprisoned in chains

I will  deny
Until
It is too late
I will pretend
Until
My body breaks
Ever Conflicted
Between
Worse and wrong
Also God
Knows
The fight was long



This is the last straw

I am going
To heal
From your claws
The spite
******* the
Life out of me
The darkness
Behind this smile
You will no longer see
I am getting you
Out of my system
Extracting you
From under my skin
Now let me live
With mistakes past
But my future
You will never
Ever again
Grasp.