I'll lay here and pray... Maybe it'll go better than it did at church..
Where I knelt and cried in front of the whole world. Finally admitted I hurt..

I'm not ten feet tall and bullet proof, like I so desperately wish...
God, take this pain.. Take these tears.. I hate feeling like this....

I'm praying to you through my writing. Something I've never done..
But.. I know that it will come from my heart.. Which I have kept shut...

Maybe I deserved this.. I should have been a better son..
I should have listened to you more... Shouldn't have been all about fun....

Every sin still lingers in my mind.. They haunt me every day....
And I've confessed more than once... I wish I could obey......

But I'm so weak, as I'm sure you know.. I feel like I'm not enough...
I'm not strong... I'm again a fallen angel... Falling away from your love..

I stand here today, so far from the same. It's hard to move on without you..
So, my God, fill these spaces left in me.. I'm so near to lost, but I'm not alone...