I just realized: I will die without you by my side During my wake you will be just another guest instead of my grieving spouse You will shed a tear In the crowd And when they talk about my life, your memories will be outdated You will not know my first apartment You never heard the story about how I saved the kitten from the tree (And it’s probably a good one) You will not recognize my crow’s feet or know when they first appeared Next to the eyelids you used to memorize with your lips You will sit there like a memory Like the cologne my grandfather used to wear A distant smell that I haven’t smelled for years Lost in the back room of “Used to be here But not.” You were the first to make my heart thud in my chest And when it stops you will not be there You will hear about it from a mutual friend And appear as a stranger With flowers from Valentine’s Day far too late