I know you're not my fault
And I know I couldn't have stopped it
But it's so hard to believe
When I'm always reminding myself
How connected we all are
And there's a weight once a month
Where you'll come up again
Where I think I see you on the streets
Before I remember that you're gone
Frozen in time as someone
I thought I couldn't like
But now in emptiness
All I want
Is to know who you were
To know what pulsed through your mind
Before it shut off
But of course I know already
I deny it of myself everyday
But it's always there
Throbbing and ready to take me
So I flinch or wince
And push it away
But the only end I see
Is one where it wins