Sometimes when I feel this way
all I need is you to hold me.
To tell me it will all get better.
The tears roll down my cheeks
and you ask "what's wrong?"
I don't reply.
I can't.
The words are stuck in my throat.
There's a maelstrom of thoughts screaming through my head.
I am silent, yet the screaming gets louder.
I can't speak.
I won't speak.
I won't release this insanity upon your ears
I won't give in to the screaming raging in my head.
The monster inside wants to rage and tear
Tear away our love.
Tear away my sanity
I am not silent to push you away
I am silent to keep you near
I can fight the monster.
I know its weaknesses.
It is me.
Sometimes I need you to hold me.
Tell me it will all get better.
That I can fight this monster screaming inside my head.
Sometimes the tears help,
But I can't speak.