Im sorry for my boringness & lack of imagination over the years, my sense of dreaming has gone away when he made me realize there's nothing left to hope for. My sense of belonging has diminished into nothing. I guess i was never really worth it to stay. I wanted to just run away with you when times got hard, maybe you weren't running with me, you were running from me. I understand. I wish i could run from me too. My subconscious shadow is always watching me. I'm trapped in this dark world, alone. Waiting to be set free, days are getting longer, breathing is getting harder. My feel of vanishing is getting stronger. It's not that i want to die, but if i were today, i wouldn't mind.