I say that I want to be happy
and that I want these feelings to leave,
but in a way I think  I'd miss them.

There is something comforting in the fact that
no matter where I am
or what happens
I will always be full of sadness.

As strange as it may seem,
there is a certainty in it
that is pleasurable to experience.

In the chaos that is life,
there is a predictability
that accompanies these feelings
that provides some form of security
in an otherwise insecure world.