I’ve been spending too much time alone
My thoughts like vapor mystify and gently
float into my eyes
watering my memories
remind me of what used to be
Of course I dwell upon the past
because I know I can defeat it
I look over my shoulder now
with no hands around my neck
the grip that used to have hold
gradually became my home
now Im crippled by my yearning
another grip to keep me down
when I only worried to survive
I did not need to feel loved