sometimes i kind of hate you
you abandoned me to make out with some guy the other night
while you were gone i sat there singing to myself
      i wondered to no one
      ******* to the air
      wished you were there

i didn't have some life-changing realization
i just thought
if we're best friends and this is how you treat me
then what should i expect from my future husband
      family
      acquaintances
      strangers
      myself

i love you and you're my
best
friend
i swear

i think i'm yours too
i just don't know if this is how best friends
are supposed to act
because there have only been two
there's you
and there was her

and i don't know if feeling like **** is normal
because that's what happened before too