Grief is not a song you wrote once Nor the padded, downturned corners of your face.
Grief lives below your footsteps A black hole with mass in the shape of a giant ape. Each of your labored steps begets its sweeping swing below. Your soles are its vines.
Between each footstep, as it moves with you you think the weight of it might be gone. Grief delights in this deception as it seizes up-down once more, reaching into the core of you and pulling it to the bottom of your shoes. Some part of you, torn away, lands with a leaden thunk and cramps the delicate inner muscles of your feet. Maybe itβs the soul or more likely itβs some forgotten vestigial ***** which only emerges through its own absence.
Now hollow in your middle the muscles surrounding contract in confusion thinking, knowing, that the empty space is wrong but not quite able to recall what had been there in the first place. and so you think your heart is seized by grief, when really, you are confused, you are feeling only nothing.
as Grief lives beneath the ground as Grief swings beneath your feet.