I’m lying in bed staring at the imperfect ceiling
Headphones in my ears, arms above my head on the bare mattress.
My face is trembling, begging my mind to stop the pain.
It comes in flashes.
I see you, always you, nothing but you.
I have a horrible, down right terrible memory,
never , have I ever, seen an image oh so vivid.
Every feature from your Hair, to your Face, to your Body.
How.I.Tremble.
The energy cannot be contained
How do I release something Like this!?
I want you.
Everything.
Your Physicality.
Your Spirituality.
Your family.
Your lust.
You.
Why!?
There’s not a **** logical reason.
I saw you.
I read you.
I felt you.
And ever since I have wanted you.
But I can’t.
Society has its laws.
And heterosexuality, simply cannot cross the boundaries of
homosexuality.
So go.
Get
GET THE HELL OUT OF MY HEAD.
GET OUT
GET OUT
GET OUT
Stop torturing me.
You're not evil, so why do you do this to me?!
I’m done.
Either confront me,
or tell your demons to leave me alone...