SO

so, spring getting you down,
so much rain, you thought you'd drown?
so there is sunshine above the clouds,
so butterflies will weave their way on
so invisible trackless trails, let it leave you
so much in awe.

IF

if, I had the time to do more than
if my way through the day, as
if I have the confidence to be permanently,
if not, forever thought of in the words,
if published, printed and read aloud,
if not then, in silence, now I write.

NOT

not in this moment, and
not, a waste of time
not, deserving just, persevering
not to be tied down,
not in this life time,
not unnoticed, just taken for granted.

WHAT

what was I thinking of
what, I was able to do with
what I was given, freely and
what have I done about or
what was expected of me, nothing?
what?

THEN

then, again, I failed
then I try try again but
then do or do not,
then think of you, dream
then wake, look beside me for
then I find you gone.