I could hear your footsteps thumping up my stairs. I could feel you there. Your presence jumped through my body. Whenever you were near everything in me was like a earthquake and would shake.

Next I knew you were leaving and all I had left for you was forgiveness. 

This lasted atleast 5 minutes and then all the pain you had caused me came flooding back in when I couldn't find what I was looking for.

I knew with everything in me to always trust my gut. So I stormed into your house demanding what was rightfully mine. But you denied all my claims and I was back feeling hopeless.

I was like a bomb ticking, tick tick tick. Everyone was waiting for me to explode. When I finally did, it all came out at once. All my pain flew out of me in every direction. The anger took over my body.

When I finally got control over myself, i stepped into my familiar home and there was what I was looking for, right in front of my eyes. Relief flooded me. 

I told you what had happened and you wanted to talk to me, like you always did. So I let you back into my home, keeping my eyes wide open so you wouldn't test my trust again. You were exactly how I left you, controlling and an addict.

 Even though I knew that, I let you hold me. You were back examining the familiar quarters of my body as soon as I knew it. And then we were sleeping in each others presences like old days. But I knew that you'll never change and I could finally except that.