To live my life without you,
Would result in the loss of mine.
For I'd rather blow my mind into oblivion,
Then to not be able to see your smile shine.

Ive always taken you for granted,
And I can not apologize enough.
You've taught me to keep myself together,
To look forward and remain tough.

You have always been my hero,
I don't believe I ever told you that.
You've saved me from all the bad in the world,
There's no way i can thank you back.

I want to make it up to you,
The pain Ive caused through out the years.
I want to erase myself from your mind,
So you can look back without the tears.

But to do that would be selfish,
Because I'm the "Lords gift to you".
You beautiful fool, I am no gift,
Just a monster the devil helped construe.

I hate myself for hurting you,
The beautiful angel that you are.
You deserve some one better than I,
Some one who surpasses me by far.

I am so sorry, my loved one,
For the damage I have done.
I'm sorry you have the burden,
Of calling me your son.

I'm sorry my dear, Ive failed you,
Your unconditional love could not keep me calm.
I am ashamed of myself, and all my actions,
I do not deserve to call you mom.