I had a dream about you last night.
It made me scared to close my eyes again.

The dream was simple, but heart-wrenching.
You were the you I fell for.
Your smile made my heart flutter,
Your laugh made me join in,
Your words and hands felt right surrounding me.

I woke up to the same emptiness that I went to bed with.
I've been sleeping with a cave in my chest,
Wondering if I will ever see the light of day again.

I prefer reality though.

At least when I'm awake, I know what I feel is real,
However raw and awful the feeling is.
In dreams there is still this "other".
This sense that what I have won't last long.
That my hands aren't big enough to keep my heart
From spilling its life out into your hands.

These waves of pain and confusion are not something I'm used to.
My heart feels like a wall, holding back the angry sea as a storm comes in.
And with each break of the waves, my heart chips another piece.
Piece by piece, my heart is lost to the sea.
And isn't it funny how the sea is the same color as your eyes.