You gave up, Walked away,
Didn't want anymore conflict,
I said I was finish too, yet
My words and actions Contradict,
The anger faded out over time,
But now I sit here feeling Derelict.

I suppose maybe I pushed too hard,
Maybe my anger carried my actions too far,
Blinded by jealousy and anger and emotions,
Seeing you as a beautiful shooting star,
Proud and independent, strong and smart,
All the good memories reduced to a scar.

You used to make me laugh so much,
Your picture left me smiling for days,
But now all we can do is yell and argue,
I've hit the wall and run out of ways,
To try and reach out to you, to be a better man,
Now I sit and watch, our memory decays.

The memories, the promises, the flirting,
The talks of perverse acts and sin,
Everything I had so badly wanted,
Crushed again, before it can even begin,
Maybe it's time, close the book and toss it,
Finally **** that small spark of hope within.

All I can do now is hope that you're happy,
Suppress memories that make my throat constrict,
Wishing you happiness, health, and good fortune,
Ignoring the pain missing you will inflict.
Saddened things had to end so poorly,
As I sit here, with my thoughts, Derelict.