Apr 2013
free falling across the dark end of the room and my limbs sprawl out from my body and your fingers tremble and your eyes are staring still and what has overcome you now?
you made me up and grew me and you know i recognize the bruises marked out on my legs but i do miss you.
and even though you took yourself away from the picture, away from the world and away from me, i do love you, whoever you may be.
come back
come back
come back
i need a father.
you made me up and grew me and you know i recognize the bruises marked out on my legs but i do miss you.
and even though you took yourself away from the picture, away from the world and away from me, i do love you, whoever you may be.
come back
come back
come back
i need a father.
this is the beginning of a panic attack and I don't want it to happen but it is but maybe i will just keep writing and distract myself but still think about dad but still think about gas and cars and my fears and this is the reason for those fears and he died in that car and the blonde lady came to tell me and i was four and my brother couldn't walk yet and i was flying arcross the room when he was angry at me and he stood by the door and my mother beat her fists against him to "STOP IT NOW" but he wouldn't stop the angry and he yelled and yelled and i said "daddy i missed you" and he was angry and always gone and then one day he didn't come back to anywhere.
