I'm an emotional roller-coaster
But you'd never be able to tell
Underneath the calm exterior
I'm in a living Hell

Where up is down
And down is downer
Where high is low
And low is lower

The cup's half-empty
Or is it half-full?
Is life pushing me low
Or is that death's pull?

'Smile' they told me
Smile I did
'Laugh' they commanded
I've been laughing ever since

Does this smile make you happy?
Am I good enough yet?
Is my laugh contagious?
Can you see my regrets?

I smile when I'm up
I smile when I'm down
It's a sure symptom
Of someone easily pushed around

I'm up, I'm happy
(I'm not, I'm not)
I'm down, I'm happy
(I hope you all rot)