hands gripping the icy cold steering wheel
so hard my palms are numb
passing the bus stop, the street we used to take to get to your house
my chest gets tight
my breath shallow
a white, painful hurt in my heart
a harsh stab of pleasure between my legs
I ******* miss you
the way you made me feel - so naive
never understanding you
trying endlessly to please you
driving I'm driving
thinking of your face and your eyes
your sharp, rough fingernails digging into my waist
wincing with pain
long, stumbling walks in the dark
the knives in your pockets
the summer
the time you lost your mind
I ******* want it back, I'd take you back
Please just please tell me you remember
the light changes and I accelerate
leave the familiar street behind, leave you behind
A beautiful, terrible memory.
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goodbye