Sometimes I think scary things in the shower— How it would feel to really hit someone, or what if I dropped out of school? You died and now I am forgetting your voice.
Sometimes I don’t think anything—I just stand, letting water slide across my shoulders course down my arms, pool at the tips of my fingers and fall.
I used to sing in the shower, but one day I quit and now my voice sounds foreign so I keep it hushed.
I start to sway, catching myself with a ****. Swiftly consciousness comes dripping back down my wet face. My hands are wrinkled— I’ve never hit anyone, or stolen grandma’s ring. I can’t get any cleaner.