spinning here in silence forever wondering at the vastness of the sea and thinking that if only each minute would bring back tomorrow to me living in the present reluctantly for the future will never be now and yesterday will never change wanting the splinter of the soon to fuse life and meaning for today reaching and grasping and hoping catching the wind in my fist I found it only shadow and murk the light rests unbendingly on this hour and only in this hour can I find the way