The floodgates have broken free. I am not who I was.
With darkness and rage spilling forth, I've forgotten how to love.
Every emotion feels wrong. As if they don't belong to my heart.
I feel a monster rising within. And it means to split me apart.
Calm and serene. That was always my goal.
But they drift farther away, as I become more unwhole.
Every little spark ignites into a roaring flame.
How do I put it out? Will I ever be the same?
People have become objects to me. Even most of my friends.
And I just use and abuse them. I wish I could see an end.
"I don't like her", "I can get over you", echo in my mind.
I pretend it's untrue... And I wish I could understand why.
Forever gone, the lights have left my eyes. I feel I have died.
And the feeling grows stronger with every new echoing lie.