You bound my wrists With tithe and tides and barbed wire Draped your braided halo around my throat Told me you’d never leave Till you did and fogged my glasses With recursive memories.
We are strangers now Or always were Because I could never Love a person who’d do that To someone. Maybe it Was just the way you Made me feel like home, Like the ******* sun, Like I understood why I wanted to exist, Why every other pop song Is about this corny ******* That really is the only reason To keep trudging in circles Trying to replicate A beginning point We will never again find.
Because love is something I only really understood After you left, when I Felt my blood harden And my senses regurgitate Memoryaftermemoryaftermemory Until every pulse was a trigger, When I saw how wretched You were, felt the sidewalk Shear my skull clean off, Even then, and even now, When you well up inside my head I feel the skin on my back Disappear and I am warm Because you never stop loving a home, Even when it is no longer yours.
I don’t intend to ever see you again, I don’t want to know who you’ve become, All I know is the girl I loved is gone, But I hope she’s happy, I hope she’s happy and I hope she’s loved, Because I will never forget What it’s like not to be.