When i was a boy, i wanted to be a politician
i dreamt of changing the world with ideas
Common and fair to us all

quickly i learned i could not play ignorant
and turn away from what was right.
reading and studying the bible
taught me that.

i could not place myself trodden along
silent while others created war
over reasons as believable
as a thousands year old
game of telephone.

No one likes an actual smart ***
at least Sandy, my teacher from Sunday youth school.

In search for a median to release
questions
tensions
angst
sufferance

I fell in love.....quickly
blindly leaving destruction
mostly my own
behind
only to get
shrapnel
peppering my soul
over and again.

Only the loves i ****** over
Made my life feel worth while.
Not because i was a Narcissus
I truly loved to the end
And trying to fix me.

Thats why now i wanna be... me

Find out what that ****** can do.