why is it that I love you so much and so hard not expecting anything in return, that I only want the best for you, that I fell so **** hard only to be left to rot, if I wasn't meant to love you then why did I fall for you and if I was the why does it hurt so much... I'll never admit that I love you, I'll likely carry it to my grave because at the end of the day you'll never feel the same... Me expressing my feelings aren't worth seeing your smile fade so I'll save my breath and bottle it up and do my best to shove it down, I'll force a smile and even lie through my teeth to make you happy because I cant bear to cause you pain.... After all, you care about me... I shouldn't care beyond that. But for some reason, my heart wants to see those 3 words leave your lips, knowing itd be a lie and it'd shatter me but I don't care.... Knowing I'll never hear those words leave your lips is what kills me inside and keeps me from sleeping at night.... And since I'll never be able to say it to you.... I love you... Through all the trials of that days and your best and worst moments i will love you endlessly and that's my curse because it means that for every day for the rest of my life I will think of you or see you in my dreams.... I just hope it gets easier for me.... For now my only ease is doing my best to make your days better because your smile gives my heart relief.....