My first party,
I'll have a blast.
Have a couple of drinks,
And forget my past.
Let my body sway to the music played.
I'm a horrible singer
Though I tip my head back and sing anyway.
Alcohol courses through my body,
Making me feel funny
Like I'm in a different body.
We stumble down the stairs
Crying from laughing
Having a hard time handling our liquor
But we have no fears.
Dreams feel possible,
While speech is blurred.
Touching each others bodies
Like it is the end of the world.
Head spinning
Fingers roaming
We fall to the ground laughing
Though still clinging.
I've been given drink after drink
Though I wish I hadn't
It's getting to hard to think.
The world is spinning all around
But we are still together
Clinging on the ground.
Tongue numb and dry
Tears fall from my eyes
I had not felt but tasted on my lips
Though I told you time and time again
"I'm not wasted, stop asking. Or next time I'll say no. And this will never happen again".
I had lied to you and my self.
Is it to late to stop you and ask for help?
My throats on fire,
I'm feeling sick
What the **** did you put in this drink?
No longer happy,
Just let me go.
"Get off of me!"
All I want is to leave and be free from this,
Of you,
Of this pain,
Of these tears,
Of this strain on my brain
And this sinking
                         feeling
                                     happening
                                                       ­  inside
                                                          ­             me.