i still remember the night you disappeared.
the smell of wet pavement.
the sounds of the city
looming in the background.
i still remember how your eyes
burned with life-
excitement
hope
the fear of the unknown-
it seared through your retinas
asking me the question:
do you love me enough to come with?
in that moment, i hated you
because it was a question
i could not answer.
oh how i wish i could've said yes
and vanished with you
without a trace
but i couldn't.
i watched you leave.
without me.
no hug. no kiss. no goodbye.
maybe it was supposed to be
a metaphor.
a promise that you would
one day come back for me.
a promise to see me again.
i don't know. i still don't know much
but now i know for certain
that i wish you all the best.