I find myself staring at your pictures
for hours without end
an act that feels so involuntary
one that I constantly try to suppress
in these moments I wonder
are you happier without me
was there someone else
why do I care…
I shouldn’t care…
yet
the more I try
the more I feel drawn to you
the more I feel our faiths are entwined
the more I feel I belong
to you…
its intoxicating
the hold you have on me
and it seems I have none
over you