Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to live a life very different from my own. Sometimes I wonder how I would react to certain situations that would never occur to me. Sometimes I wonder how people think, and if thinking a lot makes them sad or happy. Sometimes I wish I didn't think, and it's all very strange and very frightening because I'm not sure if anyone could understand. Sometimes I am just so tired that I wish I could sleep and sleep, then wake up and look at the snow outside. But when I wish for snow I get sunshine. When I wish for sunshine I get rain. And then I wonder why I wish for certain things and it makes me doubt everything I've ever thought. Sometimes I just don't know. Anything. And it can make you so frustrated that you feel like you're flickering away.