I'm so sorry
I'm sorry for not being smart enough to talk
I'm sorry for not acting how i should of
I'm sorry that i can't be the one for you right now.

But i want to be.
I want to be so bad.
I want to give you everything
I want to give you the world
But until i have a grasp on it, i can't offer anything.

Through everything, you have kept me grounded. Safe.
You make me sane
But I've been sane for too long,  i need time to figure out who i am.
And you need it too.

I wish it didn't have to be
I wish i could just see
I wish i could hold you tight and sleep through the night without a care of the world out there
But the world caught up
And I'm afraid if i don't let it take me now, we'll never have us.

Because i do want us. I want our winter wonderland. Our little things.
But right now i can't have that.

I want to love you with everything i have but right now i cant.
And i need to give me the time so that maybe one day i can
So that you can be treated like the angel you are

But as i sit here with tears down my cheek i beg of you to see that i can never stop loving you

No matter who or what gets in the way you will always be in my chest pulling my heart to keep pumping

And i know right now thats hard to hear, after all ive done.  After how much i hurt you.

And I'm so sorry that i did
I'm sorry i yelled and cried and waited too long
I'm sorry i wasn't clear
I'm sorry i wasn't your prince charming
I'm sorry this is going for so long and by this point I'm just rambling through a tissue box and tears

But by God i swear one day i want to be
I don't know when, so dont wait up for me
But dont forget me either.
For ill never forget you.