My temper increasingly rises
With another one of Red's surprises.
They surface the murky water
Making me increase the oncoming slaughter.
Starting to see red vision
While trying to sort through this indecision
Of wanting to be with you whatever it takes
On the day of your 1 year promise no matter the stakes.
Trying to control my anger urges
But I can't because more **** emerges.
Why can't I just have you to myself for one ******* day?
Why does his words have more impact than what I say?
If he's so ******* great, why are you even trying
To make this work, since half the time I'm sleeping while crying?
Am I even worth this sacrifice of what seems like forbidden love?
Or should I just lay down and wait for death to take me below instead of above?