I am silenced by the laughs
They overcome my thoughts
Ignored by many
Listened to by few

The sky is never the sky without the clouds
The ocean is never the ocean without the fish
Life is never life without death
And a family is never a family without love and tears

Love will never be love unless there is pain
Happiness will never exist without sadness

As for me, I will never be me without the chaos
Without the screaming whispers
Without the drugs
Without the cigarettes that make me sick
Without you, him, or her.

If these things never existed then I wouldn't
At times I wish they never did
At times I wish I never did

I didn't come here to prove my loneliness
Or my illness, my ignorance, and my emptiness
I came here for the same reason I go anywhere
An escape, a reach for nothing, a feel for nothing