I know your sizes, your favorite colors and of course what colors look best on you.
I know your favorite foods, least favorite feelings, all of your birthdays.
I remember all of your first words, and I pray to any higher power that I will never know your last words.
I have known you from out of the womb to now, from your chubby baby faces and first steps to thin faces and first bras and the "Talk"
I know everything on how to take care of you,
but I don't think I know what it feels like to be a real sister.
I don't know your first crush, first kiss, your least favorite saying. I don't know your true dreams and Hopes, I don't know if you play as a stay at home dad or a firefighter mom when you play House. I don't know how to be that, I don't know how to be a friend I pushed myself so far away so when I left life, it wouldn't hurt as much because then I wouldn't know what I would have missed. I regret every moment that I never took the time to know your favorite character in movies and video games. Your favorite plant and favorite smell.
I regret everything I am to you, even though I will never be as good as your second sister, just remember that I love you all more than you can imagine, even if my love feels like it is realms away, that I will fight every fight you need me too.